** happy independence day malaysia and myself **

olomokkk.. 4 days in a row been posting new entry..
obvious ke?
nahh.. announcement: i have totally nothing to do accept tido..
[and trying new recipe like laksa johor yg mcm meegorengkari].
sekian, salam merdeka kepada diri sendiri.
and world pis :)>-

and i dedicate this folowing song to miss goodself.

"Everything You Want"
Somewhere there's speaking
It's already coming in
Oh and it's rising at the back of your mind
You never could get it
Unless you were fed it
Now you're here and you don't know why

But under skinned knees and the skid marks
Past the places where you used to learn
You howl and listen
Listen and wait for the
Echoes of angels who won't return

[Chorus]
He's everything you want
He's everything you need
He's everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you
And you don't know why

You're waiting for someone
To put you together
You're waiting for someone to push you away
There's always another wound to discover
There's always something more you wish he'd say

[Chorus]

But you'll just sit tight
And watch it unwind
It's only what you're asking for
And you'll be just fine
With all of your time
It's only what you're waiting for

Out of the island
Into the highway
Past the places where you might have turned
You never did notice
But you still hide away
The anger of angels who won't return

[Chorus]
I am everything you want
I am everything you need
I am everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
I say all the right things
At exactly the right time
But I mean nothing to you and I don't know why
And I don't know why
Why
I don't know

mood of the moment: kering kontang
song of the moment: vertical horizon - everything yu want
i want money!

** at my most beautiful **

mood of the moment: numb
song of the moment: rem - at my most beautiful
i mean nothing to you.

** the that conversation **

berdasarkah kisah benar.. after a conversation with a new-fren who reads my blog since lastyear.

she is broken, he is not..
she is sad, he proposed..
she is declining, he tried again..
she accepted the hopes, but he's already in a relationship..

he had break up with the gf, what she knows..
he likes her, she likes him even more..
he's silently with his old-gf, she doesnt know..
he's clever, she's innocent.

his gf called, she felt what?
his gf begged, she felt what?
his gf threaten, she felt what?

his gf called again, she pity..
his gf go drunk, she felt what?
his gf going crazy, she felt all wrong..

she asked to choose, he cant decide..
she suggest break-up, he dont want..
she break it up, he is what?

now he go clubbing, she is scared..
but he's the one that decide, she felt 'lantakla kau.. sape suh ikot pompan tuh!~'

moral of the story:
kenapa nak ada orang lain kalau tidak boleh mengawal orang yg kita sedia ada?
kenapa nak beri harapan kalau kita tak boleh nak setia?
Never say "I love you" if you don't care.
Never talk about feelings if they aren't there.
Never touch a life if you mean to break a heart.
Never look in the eye when all you do is lie.
The cruellest thing a guy can do to a girl is to let her fall in love
when he doesn't intend to catch her fall and it works both ways...

mood of the moment:no mood
song of the moment:teenage fanclub - going places
i wanna be:enjelinajolie

** empty decorations **

7am london - +7=14=2pm Malaysia

a phone ringing.. max1s phone roaming from london..
'hello'- a chinese man with an attitude
'hello'- me with suara garau baru bangon tidor mmg sgt kantoi punye suara baru bangon tido sape yg penah call time i tido mmg tawula cemana rupe bentuk suara time nih
'hi.. im eng apopotah.. from kampeni apopotah.. blalala.. want to interview.. lalala'
terus yak Allahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.. dun do this at this kantoi time :(((((((
'im sorry, but im in UK rite now and i'm not gonna be at malaysia until end of september'
atlis that's the only line that i can thought of at this early morning tau.. and with my husky-voice tuh laa..
'ouh im sorry.. blalala' i cant hear the afterwards sbb dah krohkorhkohr..
and when i wake up couple of hours later..
huwaaaaaaaa...:(( did i just rejected an interview?
sure dia blacklist aku dah :(((((((
but huwaaaaaaa skali lagi..
i havent finished study but i still have to search for new job and that is really sucks..
i hate jobhunting..
and i felt like 'goyang-kaki-ing' until the next january 2006 boleh?
i mean.. tolonglaaa nak kene start bangon at 7am everyday again?????
i dun wanna grow up.. im a toysaruskid.. i dunwanna work huwaaaa:((
alangkah besnye kalo aku kaya 8-> *daydream*
muktamad: im gonna start jobhunting january 2006.. only and only this.

[congratz to peachy.. wuwuwuu emil proposed her yesterday mwaaaaaaaaaaaa bessss gile!~]

mood of the moment:i am utterly and totally defisit again!~
song of the moment:papa roach - broken home
i wanna be: enjelina joli geeheee:D

** the one with the Chelsea **

we: me, laily, imah, naiza
lined up for chelsea futbol tix for i think almost half an hour [and the line moved very slowly]
until we reached the samting-door very near to the counter, a man stepped near us, and made another line after us..
[mbe bekoz we kinda not lining up very properly kot..]
i was like : " nih apesal tak beratur bebetol nih.. gi laa beratur kat blakang woi.. "
but then, ofkos he didnt understand what i've said.. [i yelled in malay lalalala:-"]
we even felt like selling laily's match tix to the person back of us.. and we waited and the line werent moving
and finally laily decided to ask the person beside me:
"sekiuz mi.. is this line for buying the match tix?"
and that very person answered: "no.. this is the line for the staff entrance"..
and we saw this big sign there : "STAFF ENTRANCE"
Naiza automatically spread her umbrella..
I laughed there and then..
Laily said oh thank you..
Imah run..
and we didnt even looked back at them staring at us..
yaa we really felt they stared and laughing at us..
BODOHHHHHHHH gileeeeeeeeee
patot lah diorg semuanya dari tadi macam pandang kite semacam kan????

[finally, only laily and her brother tgk match ituh and chelsea won 4-0 thankyou]
mood of the moment:pening kelape bermain hujan
song of the moment: akma-bertakhta dihati [:">]
i wanna be: nicole kidman :"> malu lagi..

** ..saya pula nak makan.. **

inspirited by babed's blog [yupp babed.. im your silent reader lalala:-"]

1.satey k4jang haji samuri.. takkesah la kat k4jang ke kat taipan-usj ke kat warisan-putrajaya ke kat awan besar ke.. janji dia satey haji samuri..
2.asam pedas ikan mak masak..
3.daging rebus cicah air daun tatau tuh.. slurpp mencicih airliyur..
4.masak lemak cili padi mak punye je.. org lain tak power mcm mak masak.. lalala..
5.sotong goreng tepong.. [air liur dah melimpah ke karpet nampaknye]..
6.ikan bakar/udang jalan bellamy.. belakang istana negara tuh..
7.kopok lekor kat pasar malam..
8.buah manggis.. a ahhhh.. aku butoh buah manggis weyhhhh.. [taske sgt durian..]
9.nasi ayam kat chicken rice shop atau kat jalan bukit bintang tuh.. nasi ayam kat ayamas pon nakk..
10.ayam goreng kfc..
11.chicken wings kat pizzahut..
12.cendol basten-kualap1lah.. terbaekk~

mood of the moment:bergenang2 airliur.. wuwuwu nak balikkkk
song of the moment:jamesblunt - u r bootiful
saye nak kawen ngan hans isaac 8-> [sori awak.. saye daydreamin aje.. ajajjajaa]

** i never felt this empty before **

alkisah di suatu malam yang sepi.. ciktupai sedang berjalan2 dihutan siber..
dia dikejutkan olih seekor anak beruang inih..
"hi cik tupai.." encikberuang mentegur..
"hi encikberuang.." ciktupai menjawab malu2..
[festaim ditegur oleh seekor beruang]
"sorang je ke ciktupai? ;;)" acu encikberuang..
"yela.. malam2 bute nih..tiada sape nak temankan saye disini.." adu ciktupai..
"chantekkkk!! marilah kita berbual2.. saye boringla dihutan sesorang.." encikberuang mengusul..
"saye juwe boring.. marilah!~"..
lalu mereka pon berkawan sebentar..
sejak hari itu mereka sering berbual2 bersame jika dikesempatkan bertemu di hutan siber itu..
sehinggalah di suatu masa yang sgt hening..
"ciktupai..saye sgt boringlah.." kata encikberuang
"lor..kalo boring.. awak pergilah berjalanjalan.." ciktupai mengsajeskan.
"saye tiada kawan utk dijalanjalankan bersaama" kata encikberuang hiba
"hnm.. masakan awak tiada kawan?" tanye ciktupai..
"kawan tuh tiadalah ciktupai..tapi saya ada laa bekenalan ngan encikrhino dr kg seberang siang tadi" jelas encikberuang
"ahha apelagas.. ajakla dia bejalan2" cadang ciktupai..
"tapi.. takkan kami nak jalan berdua aje.. nanti org tuduh gay pule" kata encikberuang malu2..
"ye juge yeh.. erm."
"ahaa..apekate awak ikot kami bejalan ciktupai? barulah rawk!~" cadang encik beruang pula..
"ala.. saye pemalu.. saye tak penah bejalan2 dgn lelaki2 macho mcm awak" kata ciktupai malu2..
"ala.. ape nak dimalukan.. bukannye saye nih sehemsem tomkrus.. aa.. kalo awak malu.. awak bwkla kawan awak juwe" cadang encikberuang..
":-s.. kawan2 saya pon pemalu.. tapi.. saye try tanyela yeh.." dan mereka pon berpisah disitu..
sejam kemudian..

bersambung sepurnama lagi.. 8->

mood of the moment:
song of the moment:
i wanna be:

** put your heads on my shoulder **

boringggggggggggggggggggg !!!!!!!!!~
pernahtak rase sgt pressure sbb boring walaupon ade byk mende sebenanyeh nak buat?

if i was in malaysia rite now, i will call yance and go tgk wayang..
if i was in malaysia rite now, i will call eja and go gossipping at hartamas square..
if i was in malaysia rite now, i will call imah and go watching teatre at istana budaya.. [imah at uk now]
if i was in malaysia rite now, i will call oa and go mount kiara.. her ofis and that peace-place to sobber..
if i was in malaysia rite now, i will call kaklin and go sauna..
if i was in malaysia rite now, i will call mak and i go home in short notice..
if i was in malaysia rite now, i will call banglang and go lepak at sahur-3rd college..
if i was in malaysia rite now, i will call you and we go browsing ikea, exploring oneutama, watching ice-skating at sunway piramid, gigling at uptown, hunting food at bigplate or satey k4jang or naili's or andalusia [yak Allah i mishhh malaysia so much], or go shopping at ou or midvalley or klcc, or sitting chitchatting at any syed's/kandarkayu/24-hours restaurant, or i can simply go oggling people live-performin at bukitbintang ke shah alam ke memanela janji tak dudok rumah dan busan.

at this point of time.. i wanna go back! i want to i want to.. no matter how crazy i was for this UK.. i wanna go back go back.. [and i need 4k instantly.. dear god..help me]

mood of the moment:unintended
song of the moment:muse-unintended
i wanna be:unintended

** wake me up when september ends **

"Ada berisi ada yang kurus, ada melencong ada yang lurus
bukan semuanya tulus ada sempuna ada kurang upaya
ada yang jadi buta hanya bila sudah kaya"

siapa ckp semua perempuan bertudung tuh baik?
siapa plak ckp perempuan tak betudung tuh jahat?
siapa ckp perempuan bertudung tuh alim?
siapa plak ckp perempuan tak betudung tuh tak alim?
siapa ckp perempuan betudung semayang tiap waktu?
siapa plak ckp perempuan tak bertudung tuh tinggal semayang?
siapa ckp perempuan bertudung tuh takde kemungkinan melakukan jenayah?
siapa plak ckp perempuan tak bertudung tuh ade kemungkinan menjenayah?
siapa ckp perempuan bertudung takkan isap rokok punyerlaa!
siapa plak ckp asal tak betudung je mesti penah isap rokoknyer laaa!
siapa ckp perempuan bertudung sebab dia patuh undang2 islam?
siapa plak ckp perempuan tak betudung tuh taktau undang2 islam?
siapa ckp perempuan bertudung tuh tahu seme undang2 islam?
siapa plak la yg ckp perempuan tak betudung tuh tatau langsung psl islam?
siapa ckp perempuan bertudung tuh innocent?
siapa plak ckp perempuan tak bertudung tuh tak innocent langsung?

always happen when cases melibatkan perempuan bertudung [e.g:beromen di tangga vista, tamantasikshahalam, etc] orang akan start ckp:
alah perempuan bertudung tuh yeyeje pakai tudung tahtah dok beromen kat tepi2 tangge..
alah pakai tudung tuh ingat abes baek la tuh.. pangai mcm setan..
alaa pretending innocent pakai tudung while dok menggorat laki org..
alah pakai tudung abes bagos tapi sebena isap ganja tuh..
alaa.. dia pakai tudung pon sebab pesen..
alaaa.. rambot dia tak lawa, tuh psl pakai tudung..
dan bermacam2 lagi assumption.. wateva they said..
paling best bile org cakap: alaaa.. dia pakai tudung sebab mawi ske pompan pakai tudung... MOERKHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!~

dan org suke ckp: pakai tudung, baju mcm org gi disko. :D
ade satu entry abdullahjones didlm fotopejnyeh: siri baik tayah.. yg mane dia lukiskan gamba pompam2 yg pakai tudung dgn belbagai corak gaya pesen pemakaian yg baik tayah pakai tudung..
marilah kita same2 tundok insaf 8- [ehehehe tersipu]
~world peace!~

mood of the moment:kering kontanggg
song of the moment: grinday - wek mi ap wen septemer ens
i am clumsily biliv in myself.

** kahwin campor.. ada apa dgnnya? **

dewasa ini acapkali kita terbaca di dada kadkad undangan perkawenan..
cina kawen india, india kawen melayu, melayu kawen omputih..
bukan itu sahaja.. lelaki kawen lelaki pon adaaa 8-x.. [kategori kawen tolak, bukan kawen campor].
kawen campor sudah menjadi resam yg tidak dpt dimalumalukan lagi..
walaupon masih sebangsa, anak mami kawen ngan anak jawa bugis pon di katakan kawen campor..
salahkah berkawen campor? walaupon pada kebiasaannya akan mendapat tentangan hebat para kuarga dan saudara setempat, namon, ia tetap mendatangkan seribu satu keajaiban..

mari kita lihat contoh ini: sathiya + suriyya


dan mereka diijabkabolkan


dan dizuriatkan sedoyon anak2 campor


meriah.. and i have one hepi femili.. at home..

sape ckp kawen campor ituh tidak seronok?
what say you.. ?

mood of the moment: oh mama.. saye mawu kawen.. ahaha bongekkk
song of the moment: lim jung hee - geh deh ji geum [fullhouse OST]
i wanna be: shania twain ~:> ehhehhh

** i loathe that hye-won!! hwaaakkk!!~ **

pada suatu hari laily telah memberikan saya fail bertajok: BERSAMA LINDA(astro.tv): isu:mawi ketika saya sedang bertongkos lomos siapkan draft final report saya.

laloo: hai lorr
saya: iman wan:">
saya: :X
saya: :">
saya: iman-kite xhemsem pon
saya: kenape iman nih hemsem yeh
laloo: takde laa hensem sgt kot
laloo: ;))
saya: tak hemsem but attractive
saya: silap penggunaan suku sakat kata8-x
saya: :">
laloo: dia kena iman yg mualaf
saya: woo 8-x
laloo: klaka laa
laloo: sungguh2 debat
laloo: cam kita2 je
saya: ahahak
laloo: saya rasa sungguh tidak berfaedah
laloo: 8-x
saya: saye juge berase gitu
saya: [-( mane perginye arah tuju report saye[-(
laloo: ahak ahak
laloo: satu lagi saya nak katakan..
laloo: saya juga tidak bersetuju dgn penggunaan tsumawi
laloo: 8-x
saya: kamu adalah punca ketandosan akhlak dikalangan remaja
saya: saye juge mensetujui kamu didalam perkara itu
laloo: haa ye ke
saya: mereka sudah terlampau
saya: mawi saje udahle
saya: tayahla tsu ituh
laloo: saya igtkan saya seorg sahaja yg berasa demikian
laloo: kerana tsunami itu adalah satu perkara yg amat sedih yg berlaku
laloo: tidak seharusnya disamakan
saya: benar cinta ituuuuu butaaaaaa
laloo: teng ting teng ting
laloo: [ost fullhouse 8-x]
saya: [saye sedang nyanyi lagu siti nurdiana ye..harap maklom]
laloo: saya maklum tetapi sudah lupa penyambungan nye
saya: biarkan saya sahaja sambungnya
saya: kerna aku masih menyintaimuuu..
saya: tetapi.. diriku.. lagi tatawu..
laloo: suka lagu no 2
saya: ouh saya tidak perasan nombor2
saya: nanti saya pastikan
saya: biarkan saye habiskan forum tak bermakna inih dahulu
laloo: silakan menonton nye
saya: wow pertengkaran8-x
laloo: tu la pasal
laloo: pastu rasa yg budak burn tu berasap berapi je
[burn:presiden kelab mawi fc]
laloo: dia cam tak byk ckp sgt
saya: dia jenis tak reti nak ckp caner
saya: saye paham perasaan dia
saya: iman wan rawk
saya: yg bertopi ith juwe tidak pandai benar bercakap
saya: kesian saya melihatnya
saya: eh tidak pakai topi rupenye :-j
saya: silap.. yg name syazwan ituh
laloo: oo yg tu
laloo: itu adalah anti mawi
saya: yer
laloo: manakala pensyarah itu sungguh suka dgn mereka yg pandai bermain alat musik
saya: dia juga tidak begitu pandai menegakkan benang yg basah sepertimana iman wan
laloo: :))
saya: pensyarah pandai berkatakata cuma kurang berkata
laloo: lagu no 4 juga sedap didengar
saya: tapi si shazwan inih mempunyai perkara yg saya turot rasakan:D
saya: maafkan saya terpaksa ignore kamu:-j
laloo: tidak mengapa saya faham keadaan kamu
laloo: saya akan pastikan saya membeli album felix nanti
laloo: ;))
saya: saya tidak akan kemanamana
saya: saya jarang percayakan album org malaysia8-x
saya: maafkan saya disitu
saya: indonesia saya takpa
laloo: jangan lah kami bimbanh
laloo: lega saya mendengarnya kerana tidak perlu berkongsi felix
saya: jangan risau.. saya hanya tidak beli album tidak bermakna saya tidak akan berlaku seswatu8-x
saya: saya pernah melanggan majalah urtv:">
laloo: =))
laloo: maafkan saya
laloo: sungguh saya tidak dapat menahan rasa gelihati ini
laloo: tetapi saya juga turut membaca urtv di rumah sepupu saya
saya: sayajuge tegeliat jantung
saya: saya tidaklah melanggan secara setiap bulann.janganlah anda risau
saya: tapi mcm tiap bulankot pergi membeli:">
saya: yakni selepas spm yg busan ituh
laloo: saya faham kerana kamu harus keep up dengan teman serumah yang mama juwie itu
[read: teman serumah yg mama juwie saya anggap sebagai imah]
saya: alhamdulillah kamu memahami
saya: takot saya ketinggalan zaman jadi saya haros menglaku seswatu ditika ituh
laloo: saya sungguh bernasib baik kerana mempunyai sepupu yang rajin membeli majalah urtv serta mangga
laloo: malah ayah saya juga pernah membelikan kami majalah mangga
laloo: ;))
laloo: mungkin dia fikir kami sudah meningkat remaja ketika itu
laloo: sudah tidak sesuai membaca kawan, bujal, bintang kecil lagi
saya: ayah kamu sunggoh seksi disitu8-x
saya: ayah saya sangat suka belikan majalah doraemon dan anak2sidek terhadap adik saya ketika ituh
laloo: walaubagaimanapun, itulah kali pertama dan terakhir dia berbuat demikian
saya: saya menjadi merajok kerana dia selalu abaikan kemahuan saya yakni majalah hai dan urtv
laloo: saya rasa ayah kamu hanya mahukan yang terbaik untuk anaknya
laloo: ;))
saya: tapi saya juge pergi mensorok kebilik adik saya lau mencilok komik2 dia
saya: dan saya turot suka pulak komik dia:">
laloo: ye betul tu
laloo: saya juga mensukai doraemon dan anak2 sidek
saya: saya rasa saya agak jatoh chenta dgn rashid sidek didalam majalah ituh:">
saya: dia comel dan selalu terlondeh baju:">
saya: saya sukakan londehan:">
laloo: wah rupanya semenjak dulu lagi kamu sudah begini ye
saya: mana mungkin..
saya: :">
saya: nampaknya sudah magrib
laloo: oh saya rasa budak2 paris sudah pulang
saya: wahwah saya harap amat dee belikan tsert saya:">
saya: kirimsalam rindu saya padanya yah supaya dia jadi sukakan saya:">
laloo: saya akan cuba
saya: saya malu padanya:-j
saya: **pengsan**
laloo: saya juga begitu
laloo: *pengsan juga*

mood of the moment:saya tidak tidor selama 41jam.
song of the moment: byul - i think i luv yu [fullhouse OST]
i wanna have that fullhouse.. rumah ditepi pantai :">

** karma **

Lying in my bed I hear the clock tick,
And think of you
Caught up in circles confusion
Is nothing new
Flashback warm nights
Almost left behind
Suitcases of memories,
Time after

Sometimes you picture me
I'm walking too far ahead
You're calling to me, I can't hear
What you've said
Then you say go slow
I fall behind
The second hand unwinds

If you're lost you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting
Time after time

After my picture fades and darkness has
Turned to gray
Watching through windows you’re wondering
If I'm ok
Secrets stolen from deep inside
The drum beats out of time

You said go slow
I fall behind
The second hand unwinds

mood of the moment: sgt malas nak bangkit dr katil.
song of the moment: cindy lauper's time after time by matchbox20
i wanna be:inside Lot 853 Kg Pasir Ambor ituh.

** ungu violet **

=)) i read from one source and it says:

"Seorang lelaki bernama Amat yang baru saja menjalani malam pertama bersama isteri barunya, menceritakan tentang kemusykilannya kepada seorang sahabatnya, Mohd. Jamil.

"Wah, gila juga! Ternyata memang benar," ujar Amat. "Kebiasaan yang sering kita lakukan ketika masih bujang, boleh berulang pada malam pengantin."

"Maksud kau? Sebenarnya apa yang berlaku semalam?" si Mohd. Jamil ingin tahu.

"Begini. Kau kan tau kalau sewaktu bujang aku suka melanggan perempuan?."

"Ha'ah. Tapi bukan ke kau kata dah insaf dah, nak taubat selepas berkahwin?"

"Memang la. Tapi aku tersilap buat something semalam."

"Ye ke? Apa yang kau dah buat?"

"Kau tau, masa malam pengantin semalam, setelah selesai melakukan hubungan, dalam keadaan mamai, tanpa sengaja aku memberikan wang RM100 pada isteri aku."

"Wah, gila kau??!" Mohd. Jamil terperanjat.

"Bukan aku sengaja! Dah benda nak terjadi, nak buat macamana.." jawab Amat dengan muka mencuka.

"Habis, bagaimana? Isteri kau marah ke?"

"Itulah masalahnya," Amat menjawab. "Dalam keadaan separuh sedar dia menjawab, 'Terima Kasih Bang, datang lagi ya'...!"

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Moral cerita ;-) Lelaki baik hanya untuk perempuan baik. Begitu juga sebaliknya. So jadilah seorang lelaki or perempuan yang baik, kalau nak jodoh yang baik."

mood of the moment: cuak
song of the moment: felix-anak
i wanna be: supermodel..