Thursday, September 30, 2004

**yance kacak macam getah pemadam=))**

is patient and kind;
it is not jealous or conceited or proud;
is not ill-mannered or selfish or irritable;
does not keep a record of wrongs;
is not happy with evil, but is happy with the truth;
loves never gives up;
and its faith, hope, and patience never fail
Love is eternal...
1 corinthians 13:8
[jgn not into bible]

mood of the moment: penat bergadoh weyh tolongkanlahhh
song of the moment: avril lavigne - slipped away ~
i wanna be:rachael leigh cook..pulokkkk:d

Tuesday, September 28, 2004

**Thanks for watching as I fall..And letting me know we were done**

i was eating with the hongkong-gang in my house just now when they tasted the serunding n they were like:"wow..its tasty..nyummnyumm..i like spicy food" wateva wateva la kan...

n then i miss mlaysian food..
even its not samtin mummy's cook..even its only the fastfood pon..
susah btowl nak makan kat sini:((...
adeje halangannye : eg : ayam tak semelih, ade E471 emulsion watevawateva, ade gelatyn watevawateva..:(duhh

i miss those food..yeap i cant resist those:
1. first of all..ofkos all of those mum's cook:(
2. kfc ori-recipe huhuiii~
3. mango blended-presint 8, putarajaya
4. burger leleyh-rondebot UM
5. roti john-blakang ibm/pasar ttdi
6. kacang poll-mont kiara [plaza damas] and the ciken grilled with cheese tuh sodapp
7. air buah gelas besa-hartamas square
8. blekpeper bifstik uptown okeh layan
9. nasi ayam kat ayamas nyumnyummm
10.bigplate & naili's -pegi ade 2-3 kali je tapi mane nak dpt sini yg halal:(
11.megi goreng awak buat..asalje wat senirik mcm tak sesedap awak buat?

mood of the moment: teda feeling
song of the moment: still lagu [i donno if he sing it for me but if he does..i bet now he doesnt :((]
i wanna be:a supergenius!~

Sunday, September 26, 2004

**pergadohan yg tak penah sudah~**

tatau lagu ape tapi ske tak kesahlaa tuju kat sesape pon tetap gak nak tuju kat diri sendiri tak kire!~!

aku ingin duduk disisimu
masih ingin bersama dgn mu
owh mengapa kehadiranmu
hanya sesaat saja..di kota ini

aku ingin duduk disisimu
masih ingin bercanda dgn mu
owh mengapa kita berjumpa
namun akhirnya kita harus berpisah

selamat jalannn kasihh sampai jumpa lagi
biar kau disana dan aku disini
selamat jalan kasih sampai jumpa lagi
walau kau disana dan aku disini

simpanlah rindumu owh sayangku
walau bukan untuk sementara
kuharap cinta takkan ternoda
walau dua benua jadi pemisah

mood of the moment:rinduuuu malaysia:((
song of the moment:
i wanna be:back!now!

**i miss yu..i miss yu so**

Finch - Letters To You
Can't you see that I wanna be there with open arms.
It's empty
tonight and I'm all alone,
Get me through this one.
Do you notice I'm gone?
Where do you run to so far away?
I want you to know that, I miss youI miss you so.
I'm writing again, these letters to you,
Aren't much, I know.
But I'm not sleeping and you're not here.
The thought stops my heart.
Do you notice I'm gone?
Where do you run to so far away?
I want you to know that I miss you,
I miss you so.
No more looking, I've found here.
I've gone away.

mood of the moment:letih
song of the moment:finch-letters to you
i wanna be:with yu

Friday, September 24, 2004

**suicidal notes**

this is for WANIEY
wani wani wani wani wani sori sori sori sori sori sori....
:(( :(( :(( :(( :((
sori sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt sgt...
sumpahhhh aku taksengaja!!!!sumpahh!!...
aku nk bunoh diri...rase sgt bersalah...sori wani sori sgtsgt :((

mood of the moment: rase sgt bersalah tak penah rase bersalah sgt mcm ni :((
song of the moment: plis forgiv me-bryan adams [haros bunyi cen jiwang lak]
i wanna be:back to the yesterday :((

Wednesday, September 22, 2004

**c a n y u h e l p m e f i n d a w a y t o c a r r y o n a g a i n **

principles of telecommunications & packet networks...
dets my class attended today for god's sake its a 3 hours lecture..
exception to those 2times tea-break after each hours which were sooo sekejapp bangat
i cant even breathe...
my concentration only last for the first 45mins as usual..the rest was given to tulis lirik stuff at my a4 paper..conteng2..temenong2..tingat2 to femili..tingat2 msia..tingat2 korang!!!~~~huhuhu ai mis yu guys! mention the names kah??yu know yorselves..

to those yg amek c programmin under nik nazri nik ma...shud remembered those stories he did told during the first class..the class was for 2 hours..but he refused to teach until that much for he did understood human concentration only last atlist for the maximum of an will stop after 1 hour and we all can go away..
hoyehhh..i myself can only konsentret 45mins..until 1 hour..kire oke la..dr dok tahan 2 jam dokk??
so then now i have to maintain consentration for 3 hours..i will die!~:((
nik nazri is among the best lecturer..his class is sempoi..
one day he told us the day on his undergrad-days at london..
[i fogoten which uni..]
at the first time he was cultural shock with the UK..
went to harrods and amazed with the smells of parfum..lots of tons of the kind..
got carried away with the love he found..
got married in the year..then he was kicked by the uni for not attending class n failure watsoevaa..
so then his scholars knew..the family in malaysia is frustrated...
he started learning from the mistake..
then he started all over again..started with a parttime job at the mcdonalds..
[especially to support his new-born baby n the new-femily he made]
he applied to another uni..
[i think its york uni ke apetah i cant remember]..
study while parttiming is a bit risky especially when yu have to think about the ne femili members og yorself..but he's with this strenght..the backbone of his success after that::his wife n the children.
then he's excell with his name in the dean's student there n then..
bck to mesia to pay back all the hutang piutang and watevaa it is..he's succeeded..
at the end of the class..he was like:"eyh..apsal saye cerite seme nih kat awak2??"
and we were fascinated~

mood of the moment:lapar tapi bbdak tuh dah konker kitchen taleh nak masak huhu:((
song of the moment: ramli sarip + kathy ibrahim-doa buat kekasih
i wanna be:superman!ble terbang balik rumah mak makan sesedap:(

Tuesday, September 21, 2004

**i kiss - becoz i love yu**

Your Love Style Is...
You seem to be a little confused when it comes to the mysteries of love. You know you want love but you are unsure of how to get it. Try to let loose a little more and not worry so much about what other people think. You will master the love game in no time.

What is your Love Style? Find out at
mood of the moment: im confused..and always will be..
song of the moment: siksaikel versi awak ituh
i wanna be:focused..focused..focused..[on wat is my intention of being in this room! ]

Monday, September 20, 2004

**laugh it off..and let it go..~**

i went to carboot yesterday and guess what i bot??
a televisyen...i'm watching i'm watching i'm watching i'm watching...
60's tv...
i'm watching while im drinking the vanilla coke [vanilla coke 2liter is a pound a bottle..>:)]
owh to mention: the tv is 3pounds n 50 pence..yayahh..--->to convert:around 25bucks mesia..lalalala..haros tenok chanel 5 wow!~ mengheborkan...
>:) kembali menjadik saitan terlampau..

huhu the class has started..sgt boringnye..same je boring mcm lecture2 kat UM dolu..
ade satu lecturer nih..harosla rambut dah mcm enstein ade botak skek kat tetengah tapi ade hati nak mentrojankan rambut depan die yg dah kelabu asap tuh kan..duhh..gayaa~
[now i miss lectures day at UM with e'ja..kalo die ade sebelah ble sesame kutok lecturer huhu:((]
tapi mmg asek tak pahamkan ape diorg nih bebel..same tak paham ngan accent si dr h4mzah aroff yg tak weti nak ngaja dlm bm tuh..

so i had a rumet..she's from hongkong..ok kot die..takdela nampak semak sgt..
tapi..ade another housemate nih..also from the country..duhh tak weti ckp english..
aku ingat aku dah paling tak weti dah..ade gak org yg lagi susah..
tiap kali die nak ckp..i will have to like:"come again??"
haroslaa die ingat aku pekak kann??
my rumet pon ckp her english is un-understandable..
so my house is mostly from the only malay..and another girl from saudi arabia..
pon dah nak blaa dah hujung bulan nih..tinggallaa daku menonton tv ditemani makhluk2 ca ya nun alif ya..

owh fogoten..on way back to the house after the damn-bored class..
i registered to take class on foreign language..n guess what language??
ahaha..chinese language supaye senang aku nak borak2 ngan housemates..
and another one..of kos the unforgiven japanese language..
[mcm ade byk mase jeeeee nak study seme language...rase mcm nak jee register segale language tadi hohoe..tamakkk..agak2 takble bwk nanti terpaksele bebuat tak pegi jeee wiwiwii~ :">]

erm..i just got this from forwerded nak share..nahh!have it:
[its samting like the cerita-bas ituh]

Jika kamu memancing ikan....
Setelah ikan itu terlekat di mata kail,hendaklah kamu mengambil ikan itu....
Janganlah sesekali kamu LEPASKAN ia semula ke dalam air begitu saja....
Kerana ia akan SAKIT oleh kerana bisanya ketajaman mata kailmu itu dan
mungkin ia akan MENDERITA selagi ia masih hidup.

Begitulah juga .........
Setelah kamu memberi HARAPAN kepada seseorang...
Setelah dia mulai MENYAYANGIMU hendaklah kamu MENJAGA hatinya....
Janganlah sesekali kamu meninggalkannya begitu saja....
Kerana dia akan TERLUKA oleh kenangan bersamamu
dan mungkin TIDAK dapat MELUPAKAN segalanya selagi dia mengingatimu....
[wohohoeee..bak kate lagu sheryl crow:the first cut is the deepest gituu]

Jika kamu menadah air biarlah berpada,
jangan terlalu mengharap pada takungannya dan janganlah menganggap ia begitu teguh....
cukuplah sekadar keperluanmu....
Apabila sekali ia retak....tentu sukar untuk kamu menambahnya semula....
Akhirnya ia dibuang....
Sedangkan jika kamu cuba memperbaikinya mungkin ia masih dapat dipergunakan lagi....

Begitu juga jika kamu memiliki seseorang,TERIMALAH seadanya....
Janganlah kamu terlalu mengaguminya dan janganlah kamu menganggapnya begitu istimewa....
Anggaplah dia manusia biasa.
Apabila sekali dia melakukan KESILAPAN bukan mudah bagi kamu untuk menerimanya....
akhirnya kamu KECEWA dan meninggalkannya.
Sedangkan jika kamu MEMAAFKANNYA boleh jadi hubungan kamu akan TERUS hingga keakhirnya....

Jika kamu telah memiliki sepinggan nasi...
yang kamu pasti baik untuk dirimu. Mengenyangkan. Berkhasiat.
Mengapa kamu masih cuba mencari makanan yang lain..
Terlalu ingin mengejar kelazatan.
Kelak, nasi itu akan basi dan kamu tidak boleh memakannya.
Kamu akan menyesal.

Begitu juga jika kamu telah bertemu dengan seorang insan.....
yang pasti membawa KEBAIKAN kepada dirimu.
Menyayangimu. Mengasihimu.
Mengapa kamu masih cuba MEMBANDINGKANNYA dengan yang lain.
Terlalu mengejar kesempurnaan.
Kelak, kamu akan KEHILANGANNYA apabila dia menjadi milik orang lain
Kamu juga yang akan MENYESAL....
mood of the moment: yu were seing her for what?wat is det mood??i donno..
song of the moment:jason wade-you belong to me
i wanna be:focused on my mission! yoshh..bless me!

Friday, September 17, 2004

**say wat yu wanna say**

had a chat with herself just now...
im not a not a not a pretender...
but i cant resist chatting with her...
but i hate her..i dont hate her..but..i cant pretend enimor..
im a jerk???.. i hate it when it came to diskas eniting about him..
i will like..err..i dunno...err..perluke i provoke everything??
or shud i just kip my mouth shut..or..confess everything..or perhaps..she knew it???
i hate yu yan!

mood of the moment:homsik
song of the moment: i shut down-eman
i wanna be:not a pretender enimo ofkos..i don wanna be hipocryte..plisss:((

Wednesday, September 15, 2004

**i don wanna grow up..**

fidah husna n me....kat heathrow airport-london

nih kat tetepi hostel..uni of surr3y..lalala..autumn in my heart..:((
mood of the moment: homsik homsik
song of the moment: ere widot yu
i wanna be:tak takot ketinggian..giler tangge sini asek tinggi takot..

Monday, September 13, 2004

**cultural shiokkkkk**

so im here..[without you..huhuu:((]thanx to those yg membanjiri klia..[huhuuu lagik:((]
i wasnt crying there..i donno..i think being the one to have to let somebody go is much sadder than being the one who is leaving..
thanx people..eja n minyak, oa, maksu n femili, maklang n femili, makngah, my granmas, owh my beloved femili..mak ayah kaklong n banglang..[like they read all this :d :(]..
and those calling for all those wishes wateva it is..imah, peachy[yg plan nak dtg tp banon lambat], sue, shake, haa, bumah, pojan, cana, and the my dearest awakkk ituh..

foofooo...finally...the long coat with the boots dream is one step closer..haahaaa..
i never had an interest in furthering studies especially in engineering [which is sux]..
until one day imah n i met this senior of us [ksumaisarah] at the UK-edu-fair..
[i was just accompanying imah yg bersunggoh2 nak mastering oversea ever since..
i was only interested in the souvenir given during the edu-fair such as pens/ruler/paperbags hahahaaa..i loved those pens..sunggoh sedap n bes].. ksumaisarah did open my eyes..
she was imagining those winter times when we have to wear those long coats n boots and taking pictures..
whoa!..then i crushed UK so much that then i go apply for the spc-mara ituh..
[i did post in this blog of how i was late in the application process n the suxxest interview ituh ---all in the first 5 entries of this blog]

we arrived at airport-hitro,london aron 1am waktu malaysia/6pm london..
there were no nights all the way in the plane..petang jeeee sepanjang mase..
then at the airport..we were stuck at the medical reception..
somethin to do with the discrimination jugaklaa kat situ..
malas nak citer..wat saket hati..
so then aron 4am/9pm-london barula lepas imigrisen and then kami disambot oleh mara-guy n bbrape student surr3y [joe was among them]..
then we had dinner at msd-malaysian student department at london, after that barulaa terhegeh2 gi balik hostel..
thanx a lot to joe yg byk sgt tolong mlm tuh..
[bangge je pie kalo bace nih]..
seriyesli..he helped a lot..angkat my luggage yg bapak segala luggage tuh..besarrr gilakk..
lent me his hp to call my mom nak kasito dah sampai..
[pssttt..sampai2 kat bilik..i open the window..and saw this aksi-terlampau
and i was like..omigod i am gonna facing all this duhh..
my house-staghill court-44 is located very near to the student-union..
a place for student to bar n sorta disco..]

the tomorrow i had breakfast at joe n fariq's place..
they got all the equipment bes giler kitchen diorg dah occupied unlike mine yg still kosong accept those 3 fridges for different purposes which i donno what,stoves,kettle the basic things.
n there i wrote emails to my dad n frens about my arrival.
after that they bring me n other new-students to the tesco which is so near we can just walk to..
bought some basics thingy for living..rice..sugar..spagetti..bread..
penoh satu troli that cost me 17pounds only..
[sounds smol when yu had to erase from mind the convert to malaysian ringgit stuff].
then i had my lunch in one of the seniors place..
sedap doe dienyer kari ---tho i dont adore kari..tapi..terpaksele nak hidop..
seriyesli pandai dah diorg nih masak ngalahkan org pompan..
huhuu terpaksele lepas nih aku tere masak kari hohohoe..

at 6pm we had the gathering at the quite-place ---place for student to meet for religion purpose tak kesah a apepe religion..
it can be surau, it can be church, it can be kuil watevaa..
tapi every friday mmg malay dah book for solat jumaat..
so..some mara officers were there..
there were some speeches..then ade tahlil for one of the student..her mom just pass-away..
then ade ceramah from ustaz hamid..which i slept all the way..nantokk sesgtt..
[i suffered jetlagg..kol 8pm i started sleepy..
then..kol 5am-12tengahari waktu mesia everyday i woke up n cannot sleep enimo..
duhh..when will this end it goes on n on..over n over n over again..]

so..after the gathering i rushed back home without joining the malaysian-students bergaul2..
talarat sesgt..
way back tuh..ternampak lagi adegan tak diingini..tetibe kat tetepi tangge at the corridor to my house tuh tinggal suar jeans yg nampak mcm baru terbukak mcm kalo kite tatahan nak kencing tuh kite tinggal suar jeans kite centuh tuh..and i ran to my house..
lock the door..naik atas[my room is upstairs]..
then teros pejam mate n tido.dotted.
tanak dah tenok adegan terlampau nanti otak jadik bengap nanti tak dpt study..:D

finished saturday..sunday morning i woke up then i donno wt to do..
then ajak bbdak baru yg lain2 gi guildford-the town..
jalan jalan cari makan..the town is near..aron 10mins walking distance..
ble jugak naik bas..50pence...
the town is ok..ade odeon which cost 5.5pounds per movie..
triatry ke hape tah name shopping complex die-yg sgt byk brg branded..
we did some sopping in the agros-a catalog shop..
yu see things thru the catalog..then check with the keypad the availabelities of the stuff..then pay at the counter n then take the stuff from another counter..leceh giler..
we walk until the end of the town had some lunch at satu kedai nih jual kebab yg kitorg ingatkan kecikk je..tapi bapak eh boleh makan utk 2 org semorg tak abis makan..
then pusing balik with another road..
and we took the bus to go back to uni.sampai bilik aron 4pm i slept until fariq kaco with the wake-up call..
die dah kat bwh rumah nak kasi segale makneka rice cooker n stuff..
[bukan kasi..jual ok..]

so today..i woke up early as usual tatau nak watpe..
its raining outside..sejooookkkkkk sgtsgtsgt...
my registration is at 10am..fuhh..takottttssds...

owh i forgot..korang can still msg me at my max1s num..full-bar here..
and i can reply but insufficient credit la pulakk..enibadi with the heart kind enuff to top-up for me??:D enibadi enibadi??
and one more thing..
here goes my room-phone number: (0044) 870 2821196...
[i donno yg depan tuh btoi ka??+44 kankan?]
so..kalo wajin..bawak2la tepon..
yg paling pasti 10pm keatas aku ade je kat blik kot...
imah ckp pakai idd-card tuh baru 4sen seminit:phehhehhh..
okai frens...ill updet the living style after this.tataii~

mood of the moment: winduuuu mesiaaaaa
song of the moment: i miss you
i wanna be:back!!~~

Wednesday, September 08, 2004

**the reason to start over new**

tibe masenye nak nyanyi lagu nih....dedicate to semorg yg sayang aku :d
[sape tak sayang..tanak kawan :p]

All my bags are packed [haram jadah tak peking lagi :((]
I'm ready to go
I'm standing here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye
But the dawn is breaking, it's early morn'
the taxi 's waiting, he's blowing his horn,
Already I'm so lonesome I could die
So kiss me and smile for me
tell me that you'll wait for me
hold me like you'll never let me go

I'm leaving on a jetplane,don't know when I'll be back again,
oh babe I hate to go
I hate to go...

There 're so many times I've let you down
so many times I've played around
but now you know that they don't mean a thing
Every place I go, I'll think of you
Every song I sing, I'll sing for you
When I come back I'll wear your weddingring
So kiss me and smile for me
tell me that you'll wait for me
hold me like you'll never let me go
I'm leaving on a jetplane
don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to goI hate to go...
Now the time has come to leave you
one more time, let me kiss you
close your eyes and I'll be on my way
Dream about the days to come
when I won't have to leave alone,about the times when I don't have to say...:

mood of the moment: sedih terlampau
song of the moment: leaving on the jetplane
i wanna be:nutting but ordinary

Monday, September 06, 2004

**beware criminal!!~**

the first of all...
thousands thanx to eja+minyak n jjay+syuk for kaming to my kenduri doa selamat aka farewell last friday...
such a long journey huh??:">hehahaha
thanx a lot a lot alot..lalala..i rilly appreaciate...adela habuannyehh tuh..:p

the title: imah n i were discussing our future when one by one of our closest fren enganged / married/ un-single enimore...
so then we were like..takotnyeh..kite ni bile nak kawen kot??
so then imah came out with her intention:
she will be like 'ter' exchange luggage with some handsome man at the airport during her departure to london nanti...
so..beware! imah with her cruel intention ituh...
she will seek the handsome man..and do what to do..
but niwayy...enibadi with the secret-mission or secret-feeling towards imah and handsome-chinese-look[i think she like chinese-look]...
yu out there!..just pretend yu were departuring somewhere too..
and try seek her attention and nahh..
exchange yor luggage..
yor dreams to tackle imah will kam tru!!..
no kiddin hahahahaha...
[i don think i see imah hassle puttin this on my blog..ngehngehngehh gelak saitannn]

owho..reminder..marilaa turon klia beramei2 this friday okie!~
mood of the moment: takot + sedeh + mcm mcm adaaa [mma] hahaa
song of the moment: 3 doors down- here widot yu :((
i wanna be:with you!~