**like toy soldier**

mari membalas panton [membalas blog sue bertarikh 31-december-2004]
HEPI BETDEY SUE
kau dah nak masok 25.. aku baru 24tahun 31 hari.. dan umor ituh tande kematangan.. [dimane mmg dasarnye dan jauh kedaerah hati.. kauk lebih matang dr aku segenap segi].. ko dah start bejalan aku baru tehegeh2 nak merangkak kot.. dem!

"bengkenglaa sue nih"- ejan cakap.. ye.. memule kenal kat 2nd college-UM ko dah start menbengkeng.. guek rilekk je.. [tapi dalam hati geron gak..] aiyoh die nih.. suare nyaring!.. dan kauk sgt suke beterus terang segenap segi.. men sesketi je beckp ikot ske perasaan.. memule agak terase2.. lelame.. get used to it.. [opps.. ko engat ak kite sesame menjadik liason kpd cewek/cowok indon - grand asian chess challenge dimane kite "sgt" suke mengkaler banner..]

dan yeh.. guek takkan pernah lupe "sporte" ituh.. dan manusia paling sombong yg penah guek kenal ituh.. dan tolonglaa hingat penggaruan bontot yg sgt mual ituh dan sorat ituh diatas meje =)).. dan yg guek paling ingat keberanian kauk 'sound' mamat skema dalam BP ituh.. huh.. power sial!
kau mmg senang dibawak ngumpat atau gosip.. lelagi pebile kite sesame ske dok sebelahmenyebelah baik di BP mahupon di vistas.. pst pst sue.. ko tau.. budak tuh ske tint ;)).. pst pst sue.. ko tau siganas tuh ske haa!.. pst pst sue.. [dan setiap org di BP haros ade name mereka tersendiri.. receptionist-yg suke menyeringai mcm receptionist kat helpdesk, siganas-yg ske hempas2 helmet, sileman-yg namenye azhar, siayob-pakai blasah boh name ni, sialim-sbb die ske gi surau ewitime azan, sidugong-asaltahtakengat, sikedah, genglalat]
[aku suke laa ko hikhik :">]

ko goreng oats mcm goreng nasi goreng.. festaim aku tengok.. peliklaa ko nih~.. [dan kauk adeke ek mase kite bekelah di sungai gabai ke ape tah tuh yg kite makan nasik lauk sardin secare lahapnye yg mane kite tak endahkan lansong manusia2 rempit yg lalu lalang.. hohoho.."hai adik..makan sardin aje??" cilakak!]

kauk pengaroh guek ceting kauk tahu ituh??? [disaat2 guek menyedihi si todibabi].. dan kauk sedut guek dalam #exsbp dan #archi ituh kauk engat takkk??? dimane kite [ko aku jjay-in exsbp] glemer sebab kite bertige.. kemane2 gedering exsbp juwe bertige.. [dan guek menyamar budak utm ek mase memule.. tanak org tahu.. but identity revealed~ #-o]

guek jadik middleman.. kauk dan 'dia'.. kau suke soh2 guek citcat ngan dia.. tolong 'jage'2kan die kot2 apepe.. tolong ingat2kan die kat ko.. tapi ampon sue:(.. guek tak dpt tolong 'jage'2kan die dah.. [yan menjelesi 'dia'].. apekan dayeku:(.. [ewah]

kau selalu tepon guek.. "cikp4hhhhh:((".. kalo ko menangis tuh aku tahu dah.. kekdg mase guek tengah sebok bekeje kunun.. kekdg mase guek tengah drive.. kekdg mase guek kat site.. kekdg mase tenah melayan boipren.. auchhh~
fren.. i dont promis yu that i'll make yu laugh.. but i'll cry with you.. yupp.. thats the last-phone-call from you mentioning his name.. sambil menangis ko cerite: "mak.. die dah ade pompan lain".. dan mak ko pelok ko dan turot menangis.. dan zasss~ guek terus melalakkk.. [mak-mak jgn sebot yeh! sensitip]
..and after few days ko dah get over it.. and i respect yu for that! tabah! [kalo aku lame siottt.. mahu benanah bijik mate menangis.. gadoh sekejap pon talarat bawak mate bengkak #-o pheww]
dan.. the rite man will come eventually dear.. so.. i wish yu all the best.. whoeva it is.. [walopon the rite man probli the person that made yu broke.. err.. abaikan ayat ituh]

and yor latest invention..
asitoque (7:14:18 PM): ko series sampai mati ke?
asitoque (7:14:20 PM): hecehh
dia (7:14:36 PM): cecehh~
asitoque (7:14:36 PM): adekah akan beranak pinak besame cikp4h.. sehidup semati besame?
dia (7:14:44 PM): :">
asitoque (7:14:47 PM): ewahhh
asitoque (7:14:52 PM): malu siot ko!
asitoque (7:14:55 PM): akakaka
asitoque (7:14:59 PM): bohodoh banget
dia (7:15:06 PM): *blushes*
dia (7:15:07 PM): :">
dia (7:15:07 PM): kuikui
dia (7:15:33 PM): kalu takde aral melintang [perghhh ayat] yer la kot
asitoque (7:15:33 PM): tepakse di kopipes kpd cikp4h archive inih
dia (7:15:51 PM): ekehh~
dia (7:16:00 PM): jgn~
asitoque (7:18:31 PM): ahahha
asitoque (7:18:38 PM): sopaya ko menepati janji
dia (7:18:53 PM): adulaaa~~

demn yuh.. berani kauk mengorek2 rahsie kami..:"> tapi thanx buddy.. [walopon guek tak pnah suroh.. tapi bes plak dpt attachment ni dr ko..] [suke ko lagi sekali :">][muahmuahhh]
wahahahahaha gatei =))

[inih gmba mase kite gentingannn]

frensep remen n never can end~ dhaa~ [as much as i treasure it]

mood of the moment: biase2 je.. leklekkk~
song of the moment: martika-toy soldier.. ngehehe [bekgron eminem's toy soldier]
i wanna be:hnm.. :-s.. rich so i can buy new laptop.. takpon g hand-pc tuh ke.. power!

**life is like a boat**

tuka templet inih bersempena betdey yance.. nanti guek tuka semula.. [sbb skin inih telah tidak menampakkan apepe gamba daripada dilihati olih mata kasar ngeeeheeeeee... ]
niway.. yance's turning 23rd today.. [im 24 ngehe].. and ucapan saye utk betdeyboi: semuge menjadik lebih matured nguhuhu :D.. semuge menjadik tak kuat jeles nguhuhu :D.. semuge tak gado2 marah2 dah yeh.. dan semuge kite menjadik pelajar wawasan tahun inin yayyy!~ ngahaha:)).. semuge updet blog selalu juwe.. [budak pemalas yg ske korek idung!].. ngohoho ;;)..

HEPI BETDEY SAYANGGGGGGG~!!

EMUAHMUAHMUAHHH~ [hihiks]

may god bless... 8-

mood of the moment: nantoks akibat makan terlampau~
song of the moment: rei fu - life is like a boat [bleach's theme recommended by betdeyboi]
i wanna be:back in mesia n ngidam satey k4jang sgt nihaaa :(

**owh tuhan kuberserah segalanya kepadamu**

in the RFIC&MMIC class...
ø [its a zero-0 with a slash]
this a phy-character.. [pronounce fai/fi]

my lecturer - an englishman was explaining this equation when he mentioned 'fai'.. then he asked our small class.. what du yu rilly call this? a 'fai' or a 'fi'?

and a guy from greek membantah: "noh.. its a fi!"
and the 4-guy from UK: "its a fai!"
and the 4-guy from hongkong:"its a fai!"
and the 4-guy from india:"its a fai!"
and me the only malay/girl:"err.. [i cant remember..].. its a fai.. [secare confident]"
and the guy from greek: "look.. it must been pronounced as a 'fi' internationally someday.. eventually.. bekoz the character is a greek-char"
and the lecturer: "du yu know ancient-greek?"
the greek-guy: "err.. not quite.. a lil' bit"
the lecturer: "then yu shouldnt be too sure about this also rite?"
gigles..

i must say the greek-fellas are the most conceit [err.. intellectual-snob i shud say..] in the class.. they never talk to us malay.. sumbung banget!! tak heran!~ [but they had a very good skin complexion compared to those british]:-s

point taken: dulu2 mase study cikgu kite sebot fai ke fi ek?? tak engat dowh~

this entry has no moral value.. [intimate impact of seeing movie:CLOSER yg tade moral value tapi saye suke natalie portman la.. die mcm alala rachel leigh cook ituh..] and check-out this movie's theme song: best
theme-song
trailer


mood of the moment:broken up
song of the moment: damien rice-blowers daughter
i wanna be:back to the past 6years [that is so 1st year.. and i don have this mind of needing ** that very moment.. gulp]

**salam aidilfitri & maaf zahir batin all**

timba yg patot carik perigi ke perigi kene carik timba?

sape kate org lelaki tak bergosip? hell yeah they did gossip.. blah ah~!
im not gonna provoke that.. for i did claim that woman do do gossip.. so whut.. atlis thats wat made us alive lalela:-"
and niway.. back to the issue i wanna bring-up..
[mind you: this is not to kutok this guy.. plis read to the end! its the point inside his story that i wanna elaborate]
1.there's this guy in our place.. err.. kind of a man who people sometimes look-up to.. i'd put him as a 'popular-guy' among us here.. [for absolutely err.. he is the only guy - that's what made him glemer].. and ok.. i'm not interested and.. one day we travel london.. and another guy who is sitting beside him in the coaster asked him..
"ade org interested.. ko dah ade awek blom?" ---ayat samting like that.. samting like "bebetol tanye ni.. jgn la tipu.. kalo ade ckpla ade.. ade org interested ni".. and sorry.. we girls at the back of the coaster did 'pasang tinger' and i shockly looked at laily, laily looked at husna, husna looked at me.. sesi pandang memandang berlaku seketika.. berbisik kat diorg :"guek salah dengar ke tuh?"...
i often heard this situation.. yup.. but only on girl side.. nih first time dgr org merisik2 kaum lelaki.. aiyohh ammaa..

2.there's this fren of mine [a girl] is konfessing to a guy she adored.. [for she is samting brave+confident kind of thing].. me: "berani sial ko!" i kinda jump-off when hearing that..

3.my yance's-boifren is having an affair with 2 girls.. and when i asked him :"awek ko sihat?".. he replied:" awek kebende? die tak mari2 approach aku pon" and i was terngAngAa.. trend ke skang ni awek yg approach balak? and he said:" takkan nak tunggu aku dulu kot.. aku malu" and he was waiting for both girls whoeva approaching first.. yaAllahhh.. guek kejang!

4.a few gediks2 girls secare selambebombe nye snap picture of my yance semase makan di ss15 dan di sunway pyramid? wut the heck! rase nak penampor.. [sabar che pah sabor]..

ok.. i bet there's lotsa cases for i cant remember for now..
thing is.. after that, we woman sit n gossips.. zaman dah berubah.. and i said to laily n husna.. cemane ni? memang camtuh ke? kite kene ikot trend tuh ke? trend yg mane pompan akan propose lelaki.. or pompan akan start the first-step termasoklah proses mengorat? or trend yg mane pompan yg kene konfess dulu if she like the guy yeh.. or trend yg mane pompan akan tehegeh2 kat lelaki? mcm pompan2 jepon kan ramai kan yg gedik2 dulu kat lelaki.. [eg. naruto, slamdunk, stobewi on sotkek, god gimme one more time, to heart..] owh.. dimana mahu kusorokkan muke if i had to start to confess? duhhh!~
kalo ituhla yg benar2 berlaku.. kesianlah kat pompan2 pemalu seantaro malaysia.. [ i bet theres lotsa shy-girl yg jenis laki tuh tunjoklah die suke cemane pon.. pompan tuh tetap malu nak konfess selagi laki ituh tak konfess]

cmon guys.. cemane zaman ituh berubah sekalipon.. cemane dunia ituh dijajahi pompan sekalipon.. yu guys shud start the first step in a relationship.. kesian kat wanita pemalu seantaro malaya.. i don say that woman can't do the confession first.. but plis dont make it as a trend.. plis.. tolong.. plissss.. i don wanna things to turn-upside-down terbalik~

mood of the moment:raya yang sgt2 muram.. sedihhhhnye~
song of the moment:beatles-she loves yu ya!ya!ya! yeahhhh!~
i wanna be:in malaysia celebrating this raya not alone!

**plis help me with this situation!!!**

duhh~ class again..
its past an hour of the 1st class of the new semester when then i realized that that-face look familiar.. then i turn to laily beside me and was :"eh..sape name lekcere nih?" and laily and husna both turn to me and said "dr.j3ff" and doink~! "lahh.. nih supervisor guek!" and we laugh..
"hey girl how come yu diden notice him from the beginning?"
masyaAllah i've been dreaming and khayal the whole hour demit! ituhlah sejurus selepas sedar diri ituh.. i stared at him and eh-eh.. mcm penah kulihat wajah ini.. tapi dimana yaa~

people said that situation fell to those "love is in the air" people.. but not for me.. my bf and i had some major-crisis thru the skype just before the class and yu can imagine how i didnot exist in the class.. hnm.. #-o [poor girl]

the day before.. i've been sms-ed by my fren's boy saying his unsatisfaction about her girl ituh.. and i was like.. hnm? am i gonna put my hands in this relationship at first.. but i did answered him for i cant stand the curiosity.. [yaa.. there goes the first wrong step i made]..
so then.. i called the girl.. [im not the person who accept one side of story].. and i go: heyy girl.. whats going on beb? why is that? why is this? what happened really? and its just that..
i have no intention of backing-her-up or trying to cover her or wateva.. i just wanna know the real condition there. i wanna be fair. titik.
--without knowing that the boy is rite beside her that very moment and there goes this weird sms from him after that "siot ko chep4h.. tanak kawan ngan ko sampai mati!" and i choked.. gulp :-&
that is so mean! whateva that means and whateva im wrong.. i cant figure.. people!!!!! help me!
[and by all mean whats his intention of complaining to me in his first place? i tot he's samtin like plis help me figure out or samtin like plis solve this.. so i had had to be fair rite?]... and im sooo wrong.. eh?
boy.. if yu ever read this.. here's my thousands apology.. i donno wat else todo.. too guilty too shy perhaps.. hnm.. kawan2 sekalian... PLEASE TELL ME IF I'M WRONG???

mood of the moment:masok yan, dah ade 3 lelaki guek gadohkan skang.. so.. is this samtin 'gadoh-ngan-kaum-adam' month for me?
song of the moment:goo goo dolls-iris [instead of yan&azizi's verse yg gulp :-& azizi nyanyi woooho]
i wanna be:supermodel

**way away~**

..and im wondering.. wat if i be the duck?? wat if i be the bird?? im like a bird.. ill only fly away.. i donno where my soul is.. i donno where my heart is.. hnm.. bored to the hell.. winter owh plis go away.. pliss..
[points taken: wat if i step on the frozen lake? will i ever balanced myself on it.. or will i fall.. atau akan retakkah ia dan dol~ mampos tenggelam kebekuan..?? ]


..and im still waiting for this endless winter to climax.. owh where owh where the snow?? owh where owh where can my baby be.. the lord took him away from me.. owh plis don take him from me..
[frozen grass of the park of university of surr3y.. courtesy of pidah]


::Kate Winslet - What If::

Here I stand alone
With this weight upon my heart
And it will not go away
In my head I keep on looking back
Right back to the start
Wondering what it was that made you change

Well I tried
But I had to draw the line
And still this question keeps on spinning in my mind

What if I had never let you go
Would you be the man I used to know
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know

Many roads to take
Some to joy
Some to heart-ache
Anyone can lose their way
And if I said that we could turn it back
Right back to the start
Would you take the chance and make the change

Do you think how it would have been sometimes
Do you pray that I'd never left your side

cho

If only we could turn the hands of time
If I could take you back would you still be mine

'Cos I tried
But I had to draw the line
And still this question keep on spinning in my mind

mood of the moment: :-s
song of the moment: lifehouse-breathing [tajot lagu lain, entry lagu lain, in the end song of the moment lagu lain.. apehall?]
i wanna be: nasha aziz.. sbb semlm asek pikir2 apeke name nasha dlm BULI ek??

**get well soon han-neyh**

nahh.. pecaye tak kalo yance yg kasi poem nih ni?? :D mmg tak arr.. yan demam cecibir [read:cirit2].. :( semuge semboh cepat:(.. and this is samting for all awex2 semalaya dan mat2 romeo yg hangat bercinte tuh.. bwk2 kasi awek korang.. lalala... [another impact of surfing]

saya suka tengok jari awek saya...cantik
betul ni sungguh
sampai takut nak pegang...bukan takut patah...
takut nanti jari kitorang tak boleh tolong each other di satu hari kekal..
depan yang Maha Esa

saya suka tengok rambut awek saya...cantik
betol ni sungguh
sebab tu saya belikan tudung...bukan sebab jeles orang lain tgk jugak....
tapi sebab saya nak tgk rambut iklan pantene dia sampai bila2...
bukan yang terbakar dek api neraka di suatu hari kekal

saya suka tgk body awek saya...cantik
betol ni sungguh
sebab tu saya belikan dia telekong
supaya mase dating dengan kekasih die yang utama
dia lagi cantik dan berseri menghadapNya
saya pun tumpang dapat pahala pheh.... syoknye

saya sedih tengok awek saya
tak tido tak makan rindu kat saya
saya pun macam tu juga
ada problem yang sama
die tanya apa ubatnya?
saya pun bagi dia Quran untuk penenang jiwa
semoga lebih cintakanNya dari saya

saya sedih tengok awek saya
selalu pesan macam2 kat saya
makan, minum, drive elok2
tapi bila tengok movie sama2
burn asar maghrib gitu aje
die tak kata aper
berdosanya saya....

kesimpulannya saya memang sayang dia
nak jumper die selamenye
kekal..forever
di dunia dan akhirat terutamanya
janji nak share heaven sama2
semoga kami saling mengingati
dosa sendiri pun infiniti...
nak tanggung dosa dia lagi pulak lepas ni...
semoga kami menginsafi diri
Ya Allah ampunkanlah kami....


[alfatihah tothose mangse2 tsunami.. with/without blood-r/s]

mood of the moment: :(
song of the moment: gwen stef-what yu waiting for
i wanna be:jennifor aniston.. tho apart from bradpit takpe.. ramai lg nak buwek:p

**the end is the beginning is the end**

im a bit late in this.. sweetest/hardest memories of year 2004

1.the tioman's vacation with greatest buddies in world.. eja,imah,sue,oa,bum... barbeque yg trajis.. gitar yg trajis juwe.. snorkeling yg bekoyan2 trajis..

2.the valentine di jembatan putrajaya-MOF?..

3.the few bunch of live performances including disagree n naked breed.. not to forget the tragedy of incubus-konsert.. [half the concert was in unconcentrated-mood due to some minor-jealousy]

4.the weddings of great-frens.. and new-born babies of the year.. [suchs:elly's, yatkim's, meque's]

5.the pencurian bantal busok:(

6.the buttslide at gua batu maloi-johol..first n last thing i wud ever do.. ketakotan tersepit dicelah batu2 gua yg najis :-&

7.the adsl-modem kene panahpetir 2 kali dan yg 1st bejaye tuka baru secare free setelah kekenyit hidung..;)

8.the 1st-time bonus in my life.. but i hate my last company.. [they were racist..]

9.the motorola&mara interview yg mulenye mendukecitekan.. dan kemudiannye membuntukan.. the ultimate pleasure of new-laptop from company or the rf-engineer-pose in motorola or the postgrad-scholar-offer from mara.. duh.. tough decision.. and i chose UK instead..~

10.the unforgettable pergadohan hebat boipren n kosmet ituh.. [pam tayar beskal in memories..] and yupp.. i declared war between me n foodle&blek eversince that..
and sesi tolak2 him with his own fren ituh.. :D

11.the hu-hu 2 times major accident of the year..
the 1st one is with some stupid-taxi yg break mengejot.. [and ekceli me with the henfon without alaaa malaslaaa pakai ituh earfon].. and i paid for that cruel tragedy.. [and after that my fren who help me with the car got accident at the very same road.. which made me go omigod?? giggles]..
the 2nd one is hell stupid due to some unconcentrated auto-gear condition.. stupidly turn to R gear instead of D.. demit i wanna blame that 'girl' that talk so much ituh who lemme feel pathetic the whole journey.

12.the endless ninoninonino-sound from my pc [kenapa tak campakkan sahaja pcnya] and the patah-gigi-sbb-rakos-swimming of the bf.

13.the starlite-movies are the best movies for sleeping.. ahaha.. been there done that.. tapi.. still jugak suke pegi lagi walopon tahu akan tido.. saje suke suke.. and the greatest sleeping condition was when LOTR-trilogy with yan, eja, minyat, and oa.

14.the tragedi hilang-henfon kat gsc-midbeli yg mendukecitekan:(( sobsobsob.. dan tragedy meminjam henfon lalu akhirnye menjadik rete yg sgt memalukan:">

15.the chilli's nite's-out.. and the our-last-nite-together yg sunggoh memoris-daun-pisang.
perpisahan antara benua yg sgt mcm drama2 tv kat klia.. wahaha sunggoh malu mengenangkan banjir2an ituh..

16.the pekare aneh sesi lap meja dan muke di hartamas square [yg imah n eja takble takingat] x-(

17.the me n bf tergesa2 polang ke kolop1lah disuatu malam dan polang semule ke kl on the same nite while the boipren is having an exam the next morning... [kesiannn sgt:(..]

18.the most unforgettable one is when been chased by jip-ade-lampu-biru [kereta pak polisi] the speeding of speedometer.. rase seperti pelumbe F1 and adoi penat menjawab dlm balai hingge melalot masok bab kawen?... [with boipren~] [sampai skang phobia ngan kete polis #-o]
kelisa biru yg sgt sehsuatuh.. dialah madu dialah racun.. mcm2 ada.. penah makan dlm tuh [especially bege leleyh].. penah tido dlm tuh [walopon asek tido dlm kete dihalaman rumah senirik! kesiankan die tido saorang].. penah menangis dlm tuh.. penah ketawa.. ituh inih begituh beginih..

19.the my-dream-comes-true of UK at last.. the long coat with boot.. [sakek kaki weyh pakai boot.. sesia beli memahal].. the car-boots.. the omputih gileses kat londri&telefon.. the winter that made me hibernate the whole in the room.. the frozen grass that sounds crunchy when yu step on it.. the frozen lake in surr3y.. the shop-paholic yg tambah melampau.. the london hailer?

20.the unbelievable break-up of closest-frens: nana&amir and sue&koleh

and the recent:spain tour yg sgt successfull.. the unspeakable spain-language.. the unforgettable artichokes-heart.. the memorable beg-cengkerang-kekure & beg-stewedes-tarik-train.. the formidable total shock of sleeping in bed on a train.. the ultimate shooping-spree during boxing-day.. and the-dah-kene-air-spender-ke-ko-ni-chep4h everyday's lunch/dinner at malaysian hall.. [and the ayam goreng cili ituh sgt tempting!]

mood of the moment: i had enuff memories..
song of the moment: keane-bedshapped
i wanna fullfill my resolutions~