**30 hari mencari cinta*

buat aku tersenyum:)
ade sejenak kite akan rase rindu yaa amat kat seseorang dimane kite hampir menangis kerana merindui... pernah tak? ahh.. dont blame me.. die dtg sendiri.. tetibee je.. takble nak buat ape.. kekadang deep in my heart i kept asking.. where hell is my destination? wats my intention.. wats his intention..
and i run back thru our first encounter last 3 years.. i tried to remember how did 'me' in the first place accepted him in my heart.. how did we broke.. how did we 'kembali terjalin'.. of all the memories.. i smiled and i let things happen & i let me go with the flow.. scared enuff aahh..
and i bare in mind.. there's lotsa kind of those love-life surrounding me.. despite all the world's-jagged-ups&downs yg perlu juge kite amek beratkan.. but.. i prefer to gravitate around my own universe.. of all the while.. mcm2 terjadik.. mcm2 perlu kite amek iktibar..

Kawan1:
ade kawan fowed gamba penikahan seseorg yg dikenali.. and she's hot.. and kawan ini pon berkate: lawa dohh.. huhukhukk... aku takot je tak kawen :-&..
[for she don have eni boipren and she's waiting for mr rite..]
kawan2: chep4h.. aku bengang gile laaa.. asal dia nak junpe lelaki tuh?? aahhh.. lepas ni aku nak carik awek bertudung.. sahsah baik..
[and i'm reminding: tak seme awek bertudung ituh baik.. dan juge tak seme awek bertudung ituh jahat.. manusia.. rambot pon dah kaler mcm2.. inikan pulak hati.. mestilaa lain2]
kawan3: she had a boipren and she oso had an-ex-bf.. now that she and boipren is samting steady atau dgn katelainnye: stable.. the boipren is ignoring her.. dan kawan ini mule merindui her ex-boipren..
chep4h.. by this time.. aku rindu 'dia' huhu :(( :(( [duhhh~]
kawan4: che p4h... ko jgn kasito 'dia' tau.. aku rase nak carik keje kat UK la.. ko rase takpeke ek..aku nak menstablekan diri dulu kat sane baru nak bawak 'dia'..
[deep in my heart.. pompan mane yg sanggop berpisah ngan cinta-hatinyeh.. not even a week.. not even a day.. not even an hour #-o]
kawan5: tahlaa chep4h.. aku tak pnah rase cennih.. memule dulu mcm aku ingatkan kami kawan je.. dia pon dah ade somebody mase tuh.. tapi.. bile tetibe die kene tuka tpt.. aku rase sgt sedih.. then, aku dah tau aku dilamon cinta.. dah sayang sangat dah.. takble nak buat ape :(.. lalu kami kapel..
kawan6:
tahlah che p4h.. laswik break.. skang aku tataula status aku.. dia kuat sgt jeles.. ade ade je mende nak gadoh..
[pheww.. sebijik!~ mcm aku:D]
kawan7: "lawa sialll awek dia!!~.. ^:)^.. jeles tenok kengkawan berawek cantik.. aku lipas.. :( faking loser :(.. kasi aku tips mengorat awek lawa2"
kawan8: yang disini merindu.. yang itu pon merayu.. tak tahu. tak tahu yg mana satu.. tataula chep4h.. mak aku soh pikirkan yg situ.. sbb mase aku sakit yg situ tuh siap datang spital.. tapi yg sini pon nak datang jugak.. iskkk.. [pfuf bes giler ade ramai org care]
kawan9:
che p4h.. boleh tak aku rase tensennn.. sbb baru dpt emel dr dia.. dia tak pepaham ke ek?? ee.. tatahula.. aku tak benci dia.. tapi mcm tensen je bile dpt emel dia.. tatahu apsal..
[hnm.. that much?itu kire mcm dah benci ek? kawan ini telah break tapi masih diganggu ex-nye]
kawan10:
che p4h ko tolongla pujuk2 kan 'dia' tuh.. tanyekan apsal die dump aku? ape salah aku? :(.. aku mmg dah ade plan nak antar rombongan dah tetibe dia mintak break :( sedeyh siot :((.. kalo ko tau eniting kasito aku eh.. :( aku tunggu dia :(
[and he's crying in his eyes.. ade bergenang2 tunggu mase nak menitik]..
[lalu aku berada di atas sebuah tembok.. nak telan mati emak.. nak buang mati ayah.. pfuff]
kawan11: che p4h.. kekadang aku rase mcm die tak ske aku.. bile jalan same.. die mcm nak jalan jejauh.. perluke aku tarik tangan dia?
[susahla kalo lelaki dah start memalu.. pompan lagilagilaa malu]
chep4h.. koranglah idol aku.. [huaaa.. jgn mengidolakan gwek:((]
kawan12: huhu hari ni aku tak jumpe dia langsonggggggg :((... rinduuu dahhh :((
kawan13: bosan aa.. boipren aku asek nak lepak rumah geng die tuh je.. tenok bola.. aahhh.. die tatau ke aku bosan bangattt??? tolonglaaa ajak aku kuar.. aku ni takble dibiarkan sendiri.. ahhhh...
kawan14: masok hari ni je dah 5 hari beturot2 die call aku everyday.. die ajak kapel che p4h.. tapi aku tatahu dgn perasaan aku sendiri.. duhhh
kawan15: i had my own batalion of fren.. everybody's with every single supporting heart.. im happy that way.. i don need relationship..
[and deep down in her heart i know: semorang ingin dicintai dan menyintai.. btolkan?]
kawan16: dah talarat dah aku flirting sanesini.. yg 'dia' tuh asallaaa aku tak dptdpt :(( huhu.. chep4h ko doakan aku dpt tekel die yeh :(..
[ye.. aku doakan ko akhirnye kapel jugak ngan die.. supaye akhirnye ko tinggalkan kegiatan flirting ko tuh.. aku sgt tak setuju la wahai kawan.. ko bukan tak lawa.. yu deserve someone better than yor flirt-mates]
kawan17: memule mcm kawan2.. salu huhahuha.. patu tetibe die tanye.. ko suke aku tak.. and as a matured.. mestilaa cakap suke kan? bukanla aku tak suke.. tapi aku takdeje perasaan kat die.. tapi die dah ade perasaan and mase tuh aku ade rase bersalah.. and dia dah start suke yg lebih lalu aku layan hinggelah terjadinye perkare yg tak diingini..
[lenkali.. jgn simpan peraaan sebenar!~]
kawan18: penah tak kalo kat tepon ko dgr sore die stim ko rase mcm nak je terkam dia kalo die depan mate??
[pervert siall ko!~]
kawan19: apekah salah aku selame ni? penat lelah aku tunggu dia selame ni.. dia ade pompan lain??? :((.. dimana janji dia nak tolong aku potong sayor mase memasak bile dah kawen nanti?? :((
kawan 20:
aku dah penat pesan dah.. aku dah penat ajar dah. dia tak pepaham.. :((.. mase antar aku balik arituh.. dah la dah malam sangat dah.. dia ble dok diam dalam kete bukan nak turun salam2 mak ayah aku :((.. mestila mak aku kecik ati :((.. chep4h.. kekdg aku pikir he's not seriyes in this relesensip :((..

okokok... banyak sgt dah example2 real-life i quoted..
kawan2 sekalian.. ampon kerane memberitahu dunia our ups/downs...
tak sengaje tetibe terase nak tulis:D.. sendiri makan cili die rase pedas..
korang pilihla korang dlm ketegeri 'kawan' yang mane satu..
yu'll probebli fall in eni catagories.. yu'll probebli not in eni.. yu'll prob in more than one ketegeri.. kebanyakan love-life of my own fren will definitely involve both party-as in: both gf/bf..
i prefer to get to know my fren's girl/boy..
tapi ade jugak that i don even know his name.. up tu yu to intro to me..
and as everytime when people seeking my shoulder to cry on..
i'll end up with those quotations in my head yet everybody sick of it..
[plisslaaa chep4h ngan quotes2 ko tuh] but i wanna put.. lalala:-"

To My Friends Who Are...........SINGLE
Love is like a butterfly.
The more you chase it, the more it eludes you. But if you just let it fly, it will come to you when you least expect it. Love can make you happy but often it hurts, but love's only special when you give it to someone who is really worth it. So take your time and choose the best.
To My Friends Who Are............NOT SO SINGLE
Love isn't about becoming somebody else's "perfect person." It's about finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be.
To My Friends Who ...........PLAYS TOO MUCH
Never say "I love you" if you don't care. Never talk about feelings if they aren't there. Never touch a life if you mean to break a heart. Never look in the eye when all you do is lie. The cruellest thing a guy can do to a girl is to let her fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch her fall and it works both ways...
To My Friends Who Are............MARRIED
Love is not about "it's your fault", but "I'm sorry" not "where are you', but "I'm right here" not "how could you", but "I understand" not "I wish you were", but "I'm thankful you are."
To My Friends Who Are............ENGAGED
The true measure of compatibility is not the years spent together
but how good you are for each other.
To My Friends Who Are............HEARTBROKEN
Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut as deep as you allow them to go.
The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them.
To My Friends Who Are............NAIVE How to be in love:
Fall but don't stumble, be consistent but not too persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, get hurt but never keep the pain.
To My Friends Who Are............POSSESSIVE
It breaks your heart to see the one you love happy with someone else but it's more painful to know
that the one you love is unhappy with you.
To My Friends Who Are............AFRAID TO CONFESS Love hurts when you break up with someone. It hurts even more when someone breaks up with you. But love hurts the most when the person you love has no idea how you feel.
To My Friends Who Are............STILL HOLDING ON A sad thing about life is when you meet someone and fall in love only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and that you have wasted years on someone who wasn't worth it.
If he isn't worth it now he's not going to be worth it a year or 10 years from now. Let go.....

and last but not least...i love yu~ 


mood of the moment:mari bercinta
song of the moment:dewa-aku disini untukmu [ewahwah]
i don wanna grow up!~