** im getting tired of pretending im tough **

aneh aneh.. byk pekare aneh belaku lately :(..
1. tibe2 dpt sms ade org tetibe reloadkan prepaid max1s guek. tapi RM10 aje la.. salah reloadkah?
2. org ini telepon guek : 012-6158659 sapekah? dia ckp pelat cina.. dia tanye dpt tak rm10 reload tuh? dia tak tanye nak suh hayar balik.. dia mcm suke2 bejaye reload.. ade apekah dia inih? kalau awek dia melayu, takkan dia takcam suara aku nih lain dr suare awek dia? [read: no tepon dia beza kedudukan dgn no tepon guek].
3.kazen guek meninggal dunia.. umor baru 5 tahun :( sedih takdpt tgk.
4.guek mimpi minyak meninggaldunia malam mendpt berite kazen guek meninggal? [mmg mimpi saiton kot sbb guek terlajak subuh harituh]
5.a phone call from: 0133693522 and there's this makcik asek marah2 guek nak ckp ngan tpott? i said i'm che pah.. she said nih sape nih, tpott mane.. aku pukol jugak makcik nih kang. [tak pepasal abes kredit guek sebab max1s roaming x-(]
6.yanz menipu guek :((.. dia jahat kan?

i would like to dedicate this song to those who like this song.
josie and the pussycat - you dont see me
This is the place where I sit
This is the part where I love you too much
This is as hard as it gets
Cause I'm getting tired of pretending I'm tough
I'm here if you want me
I'm yours, you can hold me
I'm empty and achin'
And tumblin' and breakin'

Cause you don't see me
And you don't need me
And you don't love me
The way I wish you would
The way I know you could

I dream a world where you understand
That I dream a million sleepless nights
Well I dream a fire when you're touching my hand
But it twists into smoke when I turn on the lights
I'm speechless and faded
It's too complicated
Is this how the book ends,
Nothing but good friends?

This is the place in my heart
This is the place where I'm falling apart
Isn't this just where we met
And is this the last chance that I'll ever get
I wish I was lonely
Instead of just only
Crystal and see-through
And not enough to you

mood of the moment:sedih peningkepale rendahdiri serabot kusot benci
song of the moment: you don't see me
i wanna be: angelina jolie dan amek anak angkat.